To the normal observer, Bollywood star Deepika Padukone seems like destiny’s child – she has had a wonderful couple of years professionally, what with Yeh Jawaani Hai Deewani, Chennai Express, Ram Leela, Finding Fanny and Happy New Year all being mega blockbusters, in addition to winning her acting accolades. She has a loving family back in Bengaluru, she seems to be happy dating actor Ranveer Singh and she has all the associated perks of being rich and famous – luxury home, expensive cars and holidays in exotic locations. She celebrated her birthday just 10 days ago and everything seemed to be going her way.
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But not many would know that she was fighting her own battle with depression.
In a moving first person interview with Hindustan Times (and not leading daily Times of India, which chose to focus on more important aspects such as her cleavage) Deepika talks about how she discovered the problem, battling it, coming to terms with it and finally taking it up as a cause.
On how she discovered that she might be suffering from depression and mental health issues. Like most of us, she initially attributed it to stress and tried distraction and immersion in work as a strategy.
In early 2014, while I was being appreciated for my work, one morning, I woke up feeling different. A day earlier, I had fainted due to exhaustion; it was all downhill from there. I felt a strange emptiness in my stomach.I thought it was stress, so I tried to distract myself by focusing on work, and surrounding myself with people, which helped for a while. But the nagging feeling didn’t go away. My breath was shallow, I suffered from lack of concentration and I broke down often.
Over a period of time, it got worse. When my parents visited, I would put up a brave front because they were worried about me living alone and working long hours.Then, once, while talking to my mother (Ujjala Padukone), I broke down. She realised the problem, and got in touch with a psychologist friend, Anna Chandy, to get to the root of the cause.
Finally, I had a word with Anna aunty. She flew to Mumbai from Bengaluru, and I talked my heart out to her. She concluded that I was suffering from anxiety and depression.When she suggested I take medication, I was resistant. I thought talking was enough. Later, I met another psychologist, Dr Shyam Bhatt, in Bengaluru for a second opinion.
There were days when I would feel okay, but at times, within a day, there was a roller-coaster of feelings. Finally, I accepted my condition. The counselling helped, but only to an extent. Then, I took medication, and today I am much better.
But, when I returned to Mumbai, I heard about a friend committing suicide due to anxiety and depression. It was a huge blow.My personal experience as well as my friend’s death urged me to take up this issue, which isn’t usually talked about. There is shame and stigma attached to talking about depression. In fact, one in every four people suffer from anxiety and depression.
When you look at a person,any person,everyone has a story.Everyone has gone through something that has changed their life.
— Deepika Padukone (@deepikapadukone) December 31, 2014
Anxiety,Depression and Panic Attacks are not signs of weakness.They are signs of trying to remain strong for way too long. — Deepika Padukone (@deepikapadukone) December 31, 2014
I dedicate this year to supporting Mental Health Awareness.
— Deepika Padukone (@deepikapadukone) December 31, 2014
#youarenotalone — Deepika Padukone (@deepikapadukone) December 31, 2014
Bravo! Deepika Padukone: Mental health is our society’s worst kept secret. Thank you for bringing Depression out of the closet.
— Shobhaa De (@DeShobhaa) January 15, 2015
If you needed to love @deepikapadukone more, read this. And thank you for speaking publicly about this… http://t.co/nAVxWMndSj — Rohan Sippy (@rohansippy) January 15, 2015
Bollywood superstar @deepikapadukone turns to mental health advocacy after battling depression http://t.co/dGsuGHzgoM
— Arianna Huffington (@ariannahuff) January 15, 2015
Good on Deepika for speaking out about suffering from depression & anxiety. A lot of people wouldn’t http://t.co/VpdLACxIFk (via @gradwolf) — Sahil Rizwan (@SahilRiz) January 15, 2015
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